Confidence Boost

Written August 2017

I caught up with a friend the other day. She knows all about what we're doing with Busy Bee. She said she felt inspired and excited by it all, and that was great reassurance for us (especially after tumultuous months of wondering where I was going with these grandiose dreams).

Anyway my friend proceeded to tell me about new happenings in her life, where she was going and it was all going so well! I was inspired by her positivity, enthusiasm, ease and social butterfly-ism-ing... as always.

More chats evolved and soon something surprised me.

What took me aback, was that the person that in my eyes epitomises confidence, began to tell me she had a yearning (yeeeearning - yes, what a word) to write a blog... BUT before she could even finish the sentence, in shyness she had already shot herself and the idea down.

'Who would want to read what I have to say'. 'I want to write but no one would be interested.' 'I want to write but I'm not that good.' And 'Someone else can do it better.'

I've heard all of these things before, whether being another friend confiding in me, or my own brain chittering away. And it's such a natural thing to feel those things, to worry what others might think but (here it comes...) if something in your heart is wanting something that your head denies - you know which one is wrong.

I've had (and still do) my fair share of self indulging in the contemplation of my self purpose and importance, and there's been a million times I've not finished what I've started (or even started) because I've been so self-deprecating. Like many, I think that side of my personality works in waves and is often more prevalent than the part of me just wanting to do what I want.

I think every person will have this to different stifling degrees.

The thing is, I just know that if my friend got over that first familiar hurdle... I can guarantee that she would find it much more fulfilling to just go and do it.

It's when fears stop you from even starting is the worst thing to do. I hope eventually she does it because she'll feel how rewarding it can be to be creatively expressive. I mean, out of 7.2 billion people, if one person likes it that's good enough - even if that person is yourself.

So I'll leave it here... It's not about what holds you back but It's about what makes you happy. And you'll realise how infectious your happiness can be when your sincere to yourself.

Bye.

*Feel free to chat away in the comments, tell me what's going down with you. And if you're feeling this way about a new creative venture... I really hope this post helped in some way!